Welcome to my struggle

April 1 at the cabin all by myself. Very quiet and peaceful

April 3.What a day, storage container delivered Elaine flipped out. She still thinks we are going to get a place together. I think she is bi.polar. marriage mistake. Note to self and , never ever enter another relationship. This one is literally CRAZY

April ,1,st continued. You know someone for  20 years decide to date and get married. Turns out you don't really know this person at all.  You realized you made made the biggest mistake of your life.

April 2 no motivation. Don't want to be around anymore. Want to be with the Lord. Life is not worth living 

April 19. On April 12 I got tired of my situation kefea d rented a room. Once she found out she saw the errors of her way and apologized and promised things would be better. She realized that the reason we lost the cabin was the fault of her and her son not pulling their weight. On the 15th she had to leave. She wants to keep looking for a place for us to live, all the way up to twenty nine palms. Bad enough I list my cabin where I lived living but wants to move 2 hours from every body. Is this going to be a repeat? Right now my situation is not the same but I am at peace finally